less than one week smoke 3 pack of hun ki and so many cup of coffee, i really broke this week. spend so much money... and see a sea or my house window. thinking tat if jump down would i still alive? if nt then will i forget all the things? but no man, i must think of my family......
if really leave this world, who going take care them when they old? i cant be so selfish. tml maybe will be the 4th packet of hunki... how i wish i lost all memory.. the world is the end for me. i have heard ppl use pen knife to cut themself but i wont do this stupi things, later gt scar it make u forever remember hw u get it......... does 5th story at my house will die when jump down? who knows? god knows... how i wish i like a retarded ppl. which no trouble at minds. or monks which can help ppl in this world...... or maybe god? help ppl with problems etc....... my feeling is dead now.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................